when i stop lamenting

so many people are going smu. why why why? i almost wanted to be there, the prof already offered me a place during the interview. of course that isn't uncommon, but at that moment in time i was really into the belief that i could make a worthy contribution to the school. while so many of the rjc folks are there now, doing biz, acctancy...i dunno...i heard about the poly ppl etc who are there. i do know of smu scholars who still get top grades to maintain their sship thru sheer mugging, but of course it's more than that that gets you by. not that i reject this new form of education, but it's really too happening for me. i'd probably have lotsa fun...but who's to say these people will finally get their act together in the real working world? maybe the world of accountancy, biz esp. has changed. people are more dynamic, vibrant is the name of the game and you have lotsa socialising to do. but i still prefer the old way. it's the safest route. maybe im not ready for change. prove me. wrong.

the US system in SMU...the SMU jump...the "different" students...tell me it's not a fad. the students who enter are already different in a sense because they want to be different and are already halfway there. once fine-tuned, they become a full-fledged, true-blue so-called SMU student. i don't know...there might be a bubble, there might not. we'll see.

boss is back! i can now forget about skiving...haha...actually, now now, come to think of it, having an upperstudy ain't bad after all.
u get to use the com during work! in fact, both upper and understudy are DAMN FREE! muahahaa...

during the weekend i read about Bertrand Lee, the local budding filmmaker who lost his leg in a freak accident in India. wth, the driver ran over him with a truck that weighed at least a ton. bad enough that he already ran it over, that freaking driver REVERSED when he heard Lee screaming in pain...my gawd. that's freaking twice over. one leg was crushed, the other flattened. he appeared in Life!'s cover page. seriously, what a reminder. we can never be too sure. what seemed to be an innocent filmmaking trip changed his life totally. life is just so fking unfair.

yesterday i saw this guy with like...really big pimples popping up all over his body...my hair literally stood on ends.

whatever it is, we should just cherish the time we have here. if we are able, appreciate it. if we aren't exactly able, just make do and make life fulfilling. though cliched, life sends us all these reminders constantly, to count our lucky stars, up in the azure sky.