harbin

today's half day. we're going to harbin...gonna be some lame thing but heck it's half day so who's complaining
slacking in the office like nobody's business. not that i like it.

yesterday i had a really good feeling. unprecedented. seems so surreal. don't worry it's not sex. haha

watermarked lies

had a "branch meeting" today. jane the auntie is super naggy as usual. and i really don't like the idea of banning people from using internet for un-official purposes. it's not as if i'm busy doing official stuff? then what do u want me to do? sit and breathe till 530 everyday? some people are just senile. plainly so.

charlene once mentioned the track stuff. all the glory in the world...means nothing. cos sports mean nothing. which i thik is true if u decide on a corporate career. all these years of biaing track. i don't regret not getting 1st place or breaking the long jump record, because i have come to realise that all this merely brings glory to the school, but not yourself in the real world. selfish it may be, but tell me everyone is altruistic. i still miss my track days, but it's all just a thing of the past, something that was nice to have, but just a small souvenir on my shelf to testify to the days of perspiration. of having ang ka soon shouting at you from under his umbrella, sprinting, walking in the air...

lies are also that of smu. i can afford to say that because i can get in but i chose not to. it's not groundless. after what xinghao told me, maybe i won't be too harsh on it, but i won't go as far as to say they are different. maybe they FEED the desire to be different, but i think the difference will go as far as the term "seminar" used to describe a "lecture". aren't you people tired of fronting in front of your professors for your participation points?

spg is really disgusting. yeeching and julienne are her course-mates. they told me she sticks to those "ang-moh" bitches just like her...always faking the accents and wearing those sick stuff. yucks.

today's another busy after-day.

for the tech savvy

Dear Tech Support:
Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0. In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as EPL 5.0 and NBA 3.0. And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried runningNagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail!!
What can I do?
Desperate
Answer from Technical:
Dear Desperate:
First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system. Try to enter the command: C:/I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME and download Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0. If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automaticallyrun the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5. But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0, or Beer 6.1. Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will create Snoring Loudly. WAV files. Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-law 1.0 or reinstall another Boyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0. In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Food 3.0 and Lingerie 7.7.
Good Luck,
Tech Support

weekend with weng lock at wheelock. haha...crap brownie with banana ice-cream at the one opp. NYDC cos it's too crowded. he had one strawberry thingie called leanne rhymes or sth haha...lame lor the name.

today is quite slack in office. so far. busy busy after-work day. if u know what im talking about.

vios

drove calvin's vios and we went for makan at adam road hawker, with eve. think i drove for less than 30 mins in total. but nevertheless, i appreciate it.

look ma, i won!

no not me. no doubt Project Superstar is a publicity stunt more than anything else, but Kelvin, or Wei Lian, is really worth respecting. though I went there once for their pre-recorded sessions during the Q-finals, didn't get to see wei lian sing. but i did, once. last year after a one of those seemingly meaningless days mugging at jecl, was going to meet a friend and was already late, but wow...there was a crowd surrounding dunno-who, went closer to listen and it made me remove my headphones. if you know me real well, you'll know that it takes a lot to make me do so. and i listened to this really captivating voice. his songs were of lower key than the original songs usually, but his renditions were so heartwarming, really melted my heart. never have i heard such a sincere voice. think he deserves to win. definitely gets my vote for the grand finals.

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why do people not save? i have friends giving tuition and they earn so much a month but in the end spend it all on clubbing, pubbing, food, movies, k-box and the like. i question how much utility can be derived from all these senseless spending. nowadays, banks play the pivotal role by extending credit to almost everyone. 100% loan coverage...etc. im not gonna live on credit. it sucks. i used to lead a life of spending like there's no tomorrow, but i realised that it's quite unnecessary. ludicrous to be spending more than you earn. overestimate your financial prowess. for me, i can never stand paying someone interest rate, over and above the actual owed amount. or should i advocate people to spend more, cos it's an injection to the circular flow of income, and since AE = C + I + G + (X -M) and C is one of the largest components if not the largest, it would help boostnationalincoemandthusleadtothemultiplier
whichinturncankickoffthemultiplieraccelerator
effectandiftheeconomyhasyettoreachfullemployment
itwillnotbeinflationaryafterallandemploymentwill
riseandpeoplewillspendmoreandthecyclegoesonandon.

dream a little dream of him

guess who i dreamt of. my gawd. i dreamt of chief of defence force...wtf. i think i vaguely remember having a conversation with him at some hawker centre, and he was psyching me into putting in my best for the army. what's the catch? he was dressed and LOOKED like kim jung ill...grey, old-fashioned attire and all, plus his ampulet was black, really beats me why. haha. totally hilarious.

meiling on half day today, and xinghao is nowhere to be found...

yesterday met eemin to get the maths tys for classified use :) saw the flooding of clementi station by NUS folks.

and i keep teling myself, i'll be there...not so soon, but i will.

and i said to myself, what a wonderful world...

i am so deluding myself.

harvesting the bad grain

have i told you about city harvest?
i don't know why i have such strong feelings about this particular church, because i can't pin down one specific nagging reason behind this stand, but i guess sometimes, instincts do help.

when you enter the church, you get the impression that it's a very up-to-date church. hip. people are well-dressed, no more than when they go clubbing. just want to share with you some very interesting things i have observed during my few visits there.

1) they love statistics. 5000 people were converted in one conference, another dunno how many passed PSLE with flying colours...

2) in their weekly bulletins, they STIPULATE how many hours a person needs to study, explicit classifying them into pri, sec, jc, poly, uni etc. this is nothing but stupid.

3) in one visit, they managed to slide a letter into the bulletin, seemingly to justify why ho yeow sun deserved to be termed a pastor and refuting the press' alleged negative statements about her

4) disgusting and shamelessly, they always publicize ho yeow sun. "buy her cds!" they would eagerly flash at every service on the big screen, as if the proceeds go to the church fund.

5) the only church in singapore where a pastor isn't a pastor but someone who is a pastor on the basis that she is the pastor's wife. the husband in turn names himself senior pastor simply because he's the founder of the church. talk about deserving.

6) arguably the most costly church in spore. tens of millions for its jurong west compound

7) not only helped organized the FOP 05, but sold it's own cds there at 18?

8) "first, take our your wallet, then take out your money, put it in the envelope, and GIVE EXTRAVAGANTLY, ABUNDANTLY" blah blah all that jazz. dont be lame lah kong hee hee. ure not leading a bunch of kindergarten kids. u think ure the only one who speaks good english?

9) camera cranes. macham the ones in mediacorp.


10) video-conferencing facilities. can't you wait till the leaders come back?

many people consider new creation the parallel of city harvest. oh come on. a world of difference.

poor guy, rich guy

poor guy is me. rich guy is the guy driving the white beemer 3 series who fetched us from 5 sir back to mindef.

had to do AHM duty today...crap. woke up at 6 (which hasnt been the case for a freaking long time), at bus stop by 630...that's even earlier than when i was at nee soon camp. still, i was late, because i forgot bus service starts at 6 am usually...and usually wont get to my place in time. anyway, boonz didnt scold me haa. damn farnie. i said sorry then he "umm", macham acknowledge liddat.

was allocated to be marshall. which is good then i don't have to carry the stupid jerry can. all this thanks to wenglock lah who juz returned from his course and wanted me to stand in for him so he can do his job. just as well, one more duty left to go.

yesterday was better. went to holland v with jas, she had laksa and being the fag that i am i decided to stick to nasi lemak. THEN we had dessert. sth called cool oasis at haagen dazs, yummy.

had pizza at Spizza along balmoral road there. where i was sitting, really like macham romantic dinner. saw this ang-moh accented eurasian look-alike with a pack of cigarettes talking to her two friends, a couple. wasted man. why do people get wasted on cigarettes. all these good-lookers. so damn wasted. i'll never marry someone who smokes like, hardcore. would you?

TGIF

thank God it's fridae...this week has been an exceptionally long week. maybe i expect to be slack...but ive learnt that when u come from a point of expectation, you'll most probly be disappointed. oh well. today meiling pms...haiz...felt like losing my cool, and in fact lost it during canteen break, but not in front of her. haiz, wadeva lah.

maj sean asked kaiyuan to ta bao lunch n dinner for him...from the chicken rice stall and hokkien mee. i think he really deserves praise. he's not exactly from the most stellar of schools, but his work ethics is really good. hope he's not overdoing it, hope he's not neglecting his wife n family. other than that, keep it at status quo pls sir, then i won't have to stay back like xinghao and kaiyuan last time during the norman and patrick era. he rox my sox! hahaha.

looking forward to the hot date tonite...chill.

and the boys went out to play

it was drizzling, but we took LTC Desmond's Hyundai Tucson (or sth) down to GBRC to play badminton. at first it was me and xinghao vs yingning, then me vs them both, finally i challenged desmond at his game. we soon advanced to full court after mr song and fruming vacated the court, and it was pretty much full play. this guy is like a virtual pro...smash him, he takes, another smash, it's returned, do an ultimatum, and it's back to you again. sigh. so i decided to change strategy and do the drop shots. ha! it worked. lalalaa. but head is really damn pro. marksman. IPPT GOLD! lt col at 35. pro.

sean major lagi best. he's only 29 i juz discovered, and already attained that rank. whoa. MINDEF sure retains the best peeps. he came back today from Italia and bought us useful but perishable stuff like nougats, and non-perishable but useless stuff like corks. it's the thought that counts, yes, but why corks?!!!!

the thought of going home after 30 more minutes is really quite de-stressing. it's 5.01 pm now. ha. ha.

nic's grounded AGAIN. all the folks in his unit are OFF-in-lieu today and he's the only faggot left to tend to the office. confessions of a duty clerk. erhhh

when i stop lamenting

so many people are going smu. why why why? i almost wanted to be there, the prof already offered me a place during the interview. of course that isn't uncommon, but at that moment in time i was really into the belief that i could make a worthy contribution to the school. while so many of the rjc folks are there now, doing biz, acctancy...i dunno...i heard about the poly ppl etc who are there. i do know of smu scholars who still get top grades to maintain their sship thru sheer mugging, but of course it's more than that that gets you by. not that i reject this new form of education, but it's really too happening for me. i'd probably have lotsa fun...but who's to say these people will finally get their act together in the real working world? maybe the world of accountancy, biz esp. has changed. people are more dynamic, vibrant is the name of the game and you have lotsa socialising to do. but i still prefer the old way. it's the safest route. maybe im not ready for change. prove me. wrong.

the US system in SMU...the SMU jump...the "different" students...tell me it's not a fad. the students who enter are already different in a sense because they want to be different and are already halfway there. once fine-tuned, they become a full-fledged, true-blue so-called SMU student. i don't know...there might be a bubble, there might not. we'll see.

boss is back! i can now forget about skiving...haha...actually, now now, come to think of it, having an upperstudy ain't bad after all.
u get to use the com during work! in fact, both upper and understudy are DAMN FREE! muahahaa...

during the weekend i read about Bertrand Lee, the local budding filmmaker who lost his leg in a freak accident in India. wth, the driver ran over him with a truck that weighed at least a ton. bad enough that he already ran it over, that freaking driver REVERSED when he heard Lee screaming in pain...my gawd. that's freaking twice over. one leg was crushed, the other flattened. he appeared in Life!'s cover page. seriously, what a reminder. we can never be too sure. what seemed to be an innocent filmmaking trip changed his life totally. life is just so fking unfair.

yesterday i saw this guy with like...really big pimples popping up all over his body...my hair literally stood on ends.

whatever it is, we should just cherish the time we have here. if we are able, appreciate it. if we aren't exactly able, just make do and make life fulfilling. though cliched, life sends us all these reminders constantly, to count our lucky stars, up in the azure sky.

it gets better

yes, things did improve slightly today...managed to get access to O: thanks to mr song and i had to log into my account, transfer the files over from D: to O:, then log into Xinghao's and transfer from O: to F:, it's final destination, because only xinghao has the right to disable encryption. sigh. stupid long tedious process. and only about 10 songs per transfer...so i had to repeat the logging in and out for tens of times...took me until now and i still have one last batch of transfer...because the computer is so cock...i mean, slow.

today was pretty free. i suspect wenglock is right. meiling doesn't appear to be a slavedriver after all.

junwan's leaving today. all the best, gal!

nic told me that the doc put him on a drip today. wtf. i mean he said he couldn't refuse or else he'll be charged. why are those fkers there so trigger-happy? every little thing they do, they'll get charged. when he dislocated his shoulder the other time due to rollerblading, they barred him PERMANENTLY from doing that again, else he'll be charged. these people really have nothing better to do. and to think they don't even have a 24-hour medical facility to tend to his fever yesterday, and he couldn't book out. what if something happens to him? are they going to hide it? just like all the other suicide cases?

a friend asked me why i was doing such a "dumb" job like a clerk. why i was not going something that used my brain. since when does this organization require people to -really- utilize their mental faculties? clerks should be the privileged few who get exposure to office life, use a bit of brains and think about real issues. mindef has the smartest people. of course, that doesn't include me because i wasn't directly posted there, but you get the idea. chiong sua like those OCTs? NO WAY. I wouldn't waste my brain space to learn how to fire the sar21, saw, wadeva.

brian finally confessed that he owed his indifferent facade yesterday to tiff. im glad he has it all sorted out. he'll be at the losing end if he continues to sink into temporary depression just because of this girl. no doubt she means a lot to him, but they haven't even really got it going yet. patience man.

when i got the phone back yesterday, i was really over the moon for a second or two at least. i was really afraid they might tell me it's beyond repair, after which i would hit the roof then come back to earth and be resigned to fate. fortunately, it's working fine now that they changed the lcd screen. but on the other hand, i wanna chide myself for being such a wussy these two days without da fone.

for laughs, courtesy of xinghao, do visit these sites if you're free:
yeocheongtong.com
xiaxue.blogspot.com
xialanxue.blogspot.com
pinkshoefetish.blogspot.com
andrewkuan.com
and my "favourite"....sarongpartygirl.blogspot.com

somehow, she makes quite a bit of sense sometimes, just that she's really too outrageous, beyond this world this time. but society needs its eccentrics, don't we?

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When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby

sh*t happens

definitely far from the end of the world, but still had a pretty long series of unfortunate events, and it possibly continues beyond today.

after a stupid day at work on friday, went to capitol tower for a talk about why we need Jesus organized by eagles communications, some pro-ac organization. it was pretty good, the talk, except that it was less than a quarter full. how sad. the downhill journey began when i carelessly dropped my fone face-down...and the top half of the lcd screen turned black...great. so i used up my warranty already. and over the weekend i realised that being uncontactable is the one of the worst things that can happen to you, coming a close second behind being physically disabled. you have to constantly borrow people's fone, insert your sim card and make sure you don't drop theirs! keep yours after use in a cute little box for temporary storage until someone else willing to reset the phone's time and date settings just for your sake surfaces. how helpless is that. you're feeling totally parasitical, yet you can't do anything about it. moral? don't lose/spoil your phone. while that seems totally far-fetched and increasingly difficult to prevent, go get a spare. otherwise, welcome to my pain.

but the pain didn't stop there. while listening to the talk, weng lock msged me and i realised then that i accidentally deleted my blog. of course, some of the 9 or so previous entries are pretty noteworthy. but that isn't to say it can't be done again. im almost over it, just that certain html stuff i have to retype again makes me sian.

then you might wonder why it's a series of unfortunate events. it's really one after the other. saturday was supposed to be my cycling day, but i ended up at the nokia care centre to you-know-what...repair the fone! was sitting at some chair at wheelock (no pun intended, weng lock) place...and my mp3 started skipping tracks...it didn't play...argh. so i deleted all the songs...:(((. coming back to office today, i realise that it can't be salvaged from the office's com. the files cannot be decrypted, hence cannot transfer back to my mp3 player. in short, i can't get the songs back!!! the only back-up is my white colour mp3 player...but some of the songs might be lost in the midst. sigh.

i really hope that this trail of misery comes to a stop. what to do? shit happens.